I must have been about
three years old when, one morning, I told my mother about a strange and vivid
incident. I described how I had gone to a river, folded my clothes, removed my
slippers, and jumped in. I even explained how, while swimming, I was caught in
something like a whirlpool — and drowned.
At first, my mother assumed
it was a dream. But she was unsettled by the detail I gave about things I could
not possibly have known or seen at that age — rivers, swimming, even death.
When Papa returned from work, she told him. He asked me how I knew about this
incident, and I replied, “Because I was there.”
To this day, no one really
knows what it was (perhaps a glimpse of a past life), but in time, I forgot all
about it.
Papa believed in past life
and rebirth. Concerned, he had my horoscope checked to see if a similar mishap
could happen in this life. Thankfully, it did not suggest so, but my parents
became cautious about leaving me near water.
Fifteen years later, just
before I began college, Papa told me of this incident. He told me to be
careful, and that advice stayed with me. A few mishaps during water sports only
deepened my discomfort — and my fear.
Fast-forward by nearly 40
years — a couple of gym injuries left me needing a new form of exercise. The
answer was swimming. At first, I resisted — even considering regression therapy
to address my fear of water — but better sense prevailed. I signed up for
swimming lessons.
It took nearly three months
of determined effort, but eventually I overcame my fear. To my surprise, I even
began to enjoy swimming.
